A shadow moment

If the truth of it be known
I think I am actually much more flighty
to run and hide
than people recognise
That sometimes I am only a few steps
from hiding and disappearing from people
That the shell of my being
is very quick to close if poked too hard too many times

The thing about being a scorpee is that I won't bite
I'll lash out with my quietness and my non-presence.
That sometimes I don't know if I can quite stay *open*
for interaction and love
when I become fear*full.
I fear at times that I others will see me as annoying or too intense
That they don't feel the same way about me as I do about them
That a friendship may be too emotion*filled on my behalf

Underneath me is a girl who runs when it gets too much
Who hides, but not sincerely -
she is always hoping that someone will come to find her.

And therein lies my shadow moment...
When I see myself as more fractured than I realise.


And herein lies my light*filled moment
When I see that everything is really okay and that I am loved and that I do love.
And I do love.

Doubt thou the sun are fire
Doubt that the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love
- Shakespeare

And that goes for all of you. ;-)