sublime faltering

The path of life isn't always straight. August 2004.

If we are willing to let go of our past over and over again,
we will experience growth and change.
Then we can evolve out of the space we are in and move forward.
We may feel like we are going backwards for a time
but beyond the fire of uncomfortable emotions
comes more space with more love and peace.
~ From the Daily Guru

I find myself berating myself over taking so long to heal over things
i think to myself ~ gawd, i thought we'd DEALT with this ALREADY

why is it still coming back
why haven't i learnt my lesson yet
why am i not over it yet
why am i still learning to let go
i think to myself: god, i must be a really slow learner.

and this quote makes me realise that it's a choice, every moment, of every day,
to let go of our past.

it's not something that automatically gets ticked off the list the first time we let it go.

it's a gradual process ~ making the choice each day to let go.
some days it will be harder than others, and some days i've already let the past go before i open my eyes.

this quote opens its arms to me, hushes my fears, tells me:
you're doing just fine Leonie. just as you are.
moving through these things as best you can.

i felt like i was going backwards, and now i just see there's so much space around me now that distances seem longer.

so much space opening for peace and love.

sometimes backwards,
sometimes forwards,
sometimes faltering,
but always sublimely.

love,
leonie