Wednesday, September 29, 2004

richness of life



Me at Tidbinbilla National Park. Earthly home.


"The whole universe is breathing as our breath; we limit the process by our assumption that we are doing the breathing."
- Pir Vilayat Inayat Khan "Alchemical Wisdom"


I can not begin to describe how irrevocably my life has changed and deepened this year.

I wonder if I even glimpsed what I would experience this year.
I do know this much ~ at Christmas last year, I sat on the balcony,
At sunset.
I sat in a camping chair, and wrote in my journal while the sun set. I wondered at the world.
I craved something more.

I felt like I couldn't feel the magic in that moment
And as I wrote it down,
the setting sun caught in a cobweb on the balcony
And a rainbow of light shone in my eyes
A magical moment indeed.


And that, in itself, is a metaphor for this year.

This year my life has deepened in immeasurable ways.
Magical ways have been revealed
right before my eyes.
I realise breathlessly that
I am becoming the person I wanted to be.

Yes, oh yes.

I have begun writing again.
I have this blog to express myself, and people read it. I feel like a published author already. To be able to share this journey is such an important thing for me. And for people to be touched by it? That is a dream come true!
I am exploring photography.
I bushwalk in wondrous nature parks.

Everyday I am inspired by words, others and the world.
I paint more.
I have a dog, a cheerful dog who loves me and sits on my feet.
I have more balance.

I am partners with the most beautiful man in the world. We are growing in love and my heart is filled with him. Together we are learning about healthy love. There is so much love between us, and we are learning to move in more loving, peaceful, trusting ways.
"A great ship asks deep waters" - George Herbert

I live as simply as I can.
I am progressing and deepening in self love.
I am more Buddhist, and am learning every day.
My mind is calming. I am taming my monkey mind.
I am opening like a flower.
I am blossoming like a wildflower.

And... Possibly the biggest thing which has filled my heart... Friendships. Some old, some new. Opening new worlds in me. I am amazed by the blessings I receive from friendships on a daily basis.

SARK and the wonderful human beans I have found on SARK's Marvellous Message Board.
How I am inspired, held and taught by those wonderful beings.
There are too many of these women to name all that have touched me and opened my eyes just by sharing their story or listening to mine.

Emelisa and Lisa Marie are two such wondrous women.
I feel like I've found a dear friend in both of them.
I am astounded how the hearts of two strangers can meet and have tea parties and mini adventures sleepovers and picnics of the spirit. Our hearts, all out there in the universe, doing wondrous things!

I also have received countless amounts of beautiful snail mail from women all over the world.
Making connections of love and friendship and woman wonder.

I also have had lovely friendships with commuters - the people I travel on a bus with every day. Paris, Ben, Rob, Fi, Di, Tracey ~ all making public transport a blessing in disguise.

My new job this year has brought me in touch with such beautiful people. My whole team is lovely, laid back and laughter filled. Rob and Barb are marvellous managers. Deb and Lile are absolute blessings, permanent lunch dates with these filled with girly giggles and open heart sharing with these two fairies. The connections we make as women can make the world revolve.

So the new worlds of friends have opened and extended me in enormous ways.

As do my old friends.
Zetty, Charlie, Daniel, Sonia, Jayne, jC.


jC not being technically my old friend, but Chris', and an immediate old friend of mine.

All these wonderful wonderful people that are connecting or re-connecting with me
Who make me remember myself
Who inspire me
Who love me
So so many blessings of friendships
My friendship garden of flowers is blossoming and blooming away
I love I love I love
Connections are such a magical thing!

So yes, so many amazing, beautiful, stupendous, wonderful things this year...
growing into myself ~ what a wonderful thing

My heart yearns for the sky and wants to be as expansive and all encompassing.

All these things I have dreamt of, wanted to be,
And I AM being.
There is more to come of this
So much more

But the journey is beautiful and picturesque and never lonely.

I give honour to this year ~ this year of growth and awakening.
Not always pretty ~ but always, always beautiful.

Filled with the riches of the deepest kind ~
Art, life, love, friendships, words.




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