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From Follow Your Dreams


"The secret to inner and outer abundance is to constantly give thanks for the blessings you have in your life, instead of focusing on what you don't have.
Always give thanks for what you have, even if it is so little, because you may find, that it is more than what a lot of others may have.
Cultivate the feeling of being blessed, because this feeling will multiply and project itself outwards. In this feeling lies the kingdom of heaven."
From the Daily Guru

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This is becoming more and more true in my life.
Yes, I am so very very blessed.
The joy is spurting out of me. I am a warm geyser bubbling from the earth energy beneath me.
I feel dreams spinning in the palm of my hand.
Hurrah!

Exam this morning. All good.
Even after only a few hours sleep, me and Brain went in and boogied.
Wrote our little hearts out.
Felt good.
Knew I passed.
Sitting there, in last few minutes, I look across,
and the girl sitting at a desk near me is scribbling madly away.
I look down to my test. I have filled one booklet of notepaper.
I look at her. Two booklets finished, beside her. Scrawling in another.
And immediately I felt inadequate.
I allowed myself to feel this way.
Isn't it funny how our brain compares us with others,
and belittles our own efforts?
Not this time.
I told my brain, firmly, gently,
that what I did was good enough.
Good enough for me
and that's all that mattered.

We spend so much of our lives in competition,
fake, imagined or otherwise.
And we don't realise the battle is only with our own minds.

Nope, we don't have to be the smartest, skinniest, funniest, most creative.
We only have to be ourselves.
Such divine beings that we are.

We all have our special, unique, heavenly qualities ~
let's rejoice in that!

Let's forget competing.
With ourselves and others, imagined or real.

Let's remember living life at our own pace.

And so I did.
I looked back at my filled booklet.
And I thought: "Yay me!"
Then I boogied out of there.
I grooved back to work.
Joyous, knowing that the battle was won for me, and only me.
I did what I could,
and that's all that really mattered in the end.


~*~*~




Today, I would like to honour specially
two beautiful women in my life ~
dearest Deb and lush Lile.

Without knowing it, they lift me.
They allow me to be myself.
I am so grateful for their conscious living and loving.

This morning when I went to work before my exam,
I was sitting there in the empty office
feeling overwhelmed, tired, exhausted, drained, teary
I looked up, and there was a photo of Deb and Lile.
And I just became overwhelmed with love and gratefulness.

So joy*full for the life, laughter and light they share with me.
Even in our funks, we are loved.