yes.

"An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about
life.....

He said to them, "A fight is going on inside me. It is a terrible fight,
and it is between two wolves. One wolf is evil - he is fear, anger, envy,
sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment,
inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.
The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity,
humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity,
truth,compassion and faith. This same fight is going on inside you, and
inside every other person, too."

His grandchildren thought about this for a minute, and then one child
asked, "Which wolf will win, Grandfather?"

The old Cherokee replied softly , "The one you feed.""

~ Email wisdom.


A week ago, I wrote in my gratitude journal that I no longer wanted to be right,
I no longer wanted a friend of mine to know how hurt I was...
no, I wrote something else. Something else which took infinite more courage:
I wrote simply:
"I want this friendship to be healed."

A couple of days ago I wrote:
"i am letting go and letting love heal an old friendship."

and i just wanted to share that I did it and that it was good and cathartic.

I spent three hours on the phone last night crying with one of my best friends, and gradually unravelling threads which had become knotty and messy, caught in a ball.
And all it took was communication to cut through ugly misunderstandings.

i learned that it in the end it didn't matter who was right or wrong... because we both were. we both stumbled in the darkness for some time feeling pissed off and lost and misunderstood.
i thought it was just me who was lost in the dark... but found that i had company.

i learned an important lesson in trusting in my heart and in the goodness of other's hearts, even when my mind and ego second guessed it.

i feel like i've let go of the one thing that was really bothering me... and let love heal it.

i want to fly, and can't have much baggage.

and most importantly, i have one of my best friends back.
i thought i'd lost her, but she was there all the time.
in the darkness of judgements i was blinded and unable to see her, as she truly was.
i was unable to see me, as i truly was.

yay me.

much love to this beautiful world today,
leonie