Stillness ~ Aliveness

You must learn to be still in the midst of activity and to be vibrantly alive in repose.

- Indira Gandhi

My two handfuls of gratitude

My friend Paris tells me that you shouldn't whinge if you can count your blessings on two hands.

Two Handfuls of Gratitude

1. My boy. My boy. My boy.
Everyday. He amazes me.
2. My wonderful workplace
3. My health.
Without this, everything else would be dimmer.
4. My laptop.
Allowing me to communicate in new ways.
5. The Marvellous Message Board
Even when it's full moon and it goes a bit haywire it is still filled with love.
6. The girly lunch date with Deb and Lile today
Filled with girly giggles and glittery things and yummy desserts instead of lunch.
7. My new big king size bed.
A wonderful nights sleep
8. My beanbag.
Always comfortable.
9. My friends.
Old and new. All opening new worlds in me.
10. This journey.
And this home which is my shell.


My thanks to Deb also for making me think about gratefulness more
And Raficki/Em who just ~is~

Ego vs Oneness

"The egos main goal is to keep you in a state of separation. It doesn’t care how it achieves this goal, as long as it achieves it.
Without separation the ego cannot exist.
The ego is simply the idea that you are a separate self that exists apart from the Universe.
You may be rich, you may be poor or you may be sick or even healthy. The ego doesn’t care. It uses everything it can to make you see differences between you and others.

Have you ever noticed how some people never stop complaining about how much of a tragedy their life is, or how much life is mistreating them? That is the ego at work. It is saying that I am a victim and I am being mistreated by the victimizers of the world.
Once you stop listening to the egos lies and start to see Oneness all around you, all the opposites that exist in this world will no longer be part of your reality. You will only experience the constant Love, Peace and Abundance of God, which has no opposite."

From the Daily Guru
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This is an interesting thought you know.
I was sitting on the bus the other afternoon on the way home and the sun was GOLDEN and streaming over the fields and over the mountains and over the trees
Everything was bedazzled in the most vibrant yellow.

I thought to myself:
I am a part of this. I am a part of this. I am a part of the mountains.

And I heard something scared inside of me say: But then I won't be ME.
If I was a part of the mountain I would lose my identity. I wouldn't be Leonie. I LIKE being me. I want to be ME always.
In THIS FORM.

I thought about this for a while.

Why was I afraid of being something that wasn't me?
What was so scary about the thought of being a part of a mountain, part of the earth.
Perhaps it has something to do with me wanting to be more than that.
Even if there IS nothing more than that.
Existence is existence, no matter which shape it takes.
Why do I cling to existence?
It is all I know.

This is all very thought provoking.

All because I thought: I am a part of this
And I am.
No matter how much my ego wants me to be different from everything else.

hee hee hee
how funny this all is!